Ahhh — long time no talk. Apologies for it has been a while since I’ve posted and there’s been so much that has been happening in my life. I’ve been so busy and I’ve barely had time to process it myself. So, I feel like today’s post is going to be kind of random and cover a lot of different topics in my life, but you can expect to see more posts coming this week and next and so forth! I have at least 4 outlined and am in the process of writing them. I’m wrapping up my current part-time job projects with my last day being on April 15th, so I’m super excited to have more of a relaxing spring quarter and do things I really enjoy, such as playing around with media platforms, cooking, traveling, and much more!
Today, I kind of wanted to have a conversation and talk about what I’m going through and what I’m thinking about in my mind nowadays.
So for those of you who don’t know, I turned 22 last Thursday on April 4th. It’s kind of crazy that I’m already 22, because I barely look a day over 16 (according to every bartender who has ever carded me).
I have a “post” where I talk about the 22 things that I’ve learned in 22 years, and I’m debating whether to write about it or post it in a video form. Any thoughts? Sighs—I’ll make a decision at some point.
Anyways…. let’s see… I just want to say that I’m really proud of how much I’ve grown, and what makes me even more excited is the fact that I have so many more areas I know that I want to grow in, skills that I could work on, and things that I want to do. And I’m going to be patient and focus on that. I don’t know why but I sort of feel like “my life begins now.” I just have some kind of feeling that this next phase of my life is going to be…preparing me for what I’m meant to do in this world. I’ve known from a very early age that I was put on this Earth for a reason. I just feel it. And I’m really finally starting to align with that mission. I don’t even know what that actually is, but I know that this is where it begins. With graduation, I’m going to finally be “free” in a sense. Mind you, being free doesn’t mean that life is going to get any easier. In fact, I really do think life gets harder from here on out. But for some reason, I’m excited. I’m also scared. But I’m also up for the challenge.
Friends & Birthdays
Cheesy thoughts aside, I had an amazing birthday celebration with family and friends. My family is off in Vietnam right now for 3 weeks to take care of family matters abroad, but we decided to celebrate a little earlier during my spring break. On the week of my birthday, I was able to celebrate with my friends through different intimate gatherings and dinners, and I really really enjoyed it.
I’m so happy, y’alls. I’ve always had good, close friends, but I feel like after my summer in Seattle—I’m finally able to have genuine friends. (Disclaimer: Not all of my close friends are pictured above btw!) I have found my ride-or-dies, my AI’s, my supporters. I will value and protect them at all costs. I’ve always struggled with maintaining friendships growing up, and if you asked me like literally last year, I would have told you that I do not have any best friends….I do not believe in best friends…and that I don’t trust anyone. But I think that this was ultimately just my mindset after trying so hard with so many people to be a good friend, having them betray me in some way, and/or it never really working out…as well as being bullied growing up. Part of me wonders if the reason why I try to stay private and low-key on Stanford, focus on my work, and not socialize that much is due partially to the fact that I don’t want to perpetuate the social gossip and drama that I dealt with growing up. Nonetheless, at the end of the day, I don’t care anymore. LOL. I’m thriving. Let me just say this and only this—karma is real. And I’m profiting off all the ROI that I got from my good karma over the years. Okay…sass aside: I feel like starting last year, I’ve been able to find so many diverse friends from all over who support and empower me, can be honest with me, and just be the best people to just be with. I’m grateful for my friends and family.
Now, off to the scarier stuff. YOU GUYS—I am declaring as the head of the household on my taxes this year. I’ve been helping out my financially for a while, but it was never that official until now. After I graduate, I’m also going to be pretty much taking care of my family financially from afar, since I’ll be in Seattle and they’re back home in Southern California. I feel a crazy amount of responsibility that is put on my shoulders right now because tax papers just make it so official, and I’m only 22. I’m literally barely scratched the surface on what I want to do with this world, figuring out my life/goals/dreams/etc, and now I have to think about two other people (and a dog!) to take care of. I’m not complaining, but I do have to admit that I’m kind of scared. God knows I already have so much to worry about as a young adult in the real world. Sometimes I’ll ask myself that question of “Why me?” Or… Can I do it? Will I be able to do it? How is this going to work?
But I’ve contemplated on this thought and observed situations how I or other people have dealt with this in the past, and I’ve come to a conclusion.
Whenever we’re in these kinds of situations where we question our ability to be able to do something or not, I think we should remind ourselves that: the world doesn’t give us what we can’t handle.
The world doesn’t give us what we can’t handle.
I’ve just been repeating this internally to myself whenever I feel these thoughts and fears coming up again. I genuinely believe that if we weren’t ready to face something, it wouldn’t have even surfaced in our lives. Thus, if we are faced with these kinds of situations, we CAN handle it. Maybe we don’t know how yet, but it’s important to just start by having belief that we can and will get through it.
Now that I look back… most of my life has been a lot of trusting the process, trusting God’s timing, and most importantly, trusting in myself. I don’t know if anyone else relates to this, but I really hope that if you are feeling the same way, maybe these words and this kind of mindset will help you stay grounded despite the fears and uncertainty. You’re not alone.
Nonetheless, I’m a very positive and optimistic person, so don’t worry about me! Anyways, I just want to say that I’m super excited for what is in store this quarter with graduating lurking upon us. To give y’alls a primer on what the next few posts will be (in no order):
Book Club starting… first selection for April: Principles by Ray Dalio
I need to provide some context LOL. My best friend and I already do this thing on our own where we like to read books and summarize things we learn to each other, as well as discuss our thoughts on them and how they apply to our lives. We know for sure that we’re going to start reading Principles by Ray Dalio for the month of April and maybe up until May (since it’s a huge book) and I figured I would tell y’alls because I’d love for you guys to join us!
I’ll talk a little bit more in the official post coming later this week, but I kind of want to start like a digital book club! Ceci and I will probably discuss our thoughts in the Thrive podcast launching sometime end of April/early May or on YouTube, but overall—get/rent/buy/etc. the book and read it with us! You can also get access to the book FOR FREE using the app: Principles in Action! It’s amazing so far!! <3 I’ve been recommended to read it by so many people too!
22 Things I’ve learned in 22 Years
Goals for This Quarter
Doing This Once a Week Has Absolutely Changed My Life
The Direction of This Blog Moving Forward
5 Life-Changing Apps You Must Try
And no, these apps are super underrated and not the basic mainstream ones. I really genuinely believe these apps can maybe change your life, or at the least, are really cool :)
Why I Chose Hulu (& Rejected Microsoft & Other Big Tech Companies) / How to Choose a Company to Work For
And y’know what? As I’m writing this… I thought up of some more post ideas.. Maybe we’ll include a few love posts? … who knows…. ;)
Anyways, to wrap up this article…. this is a spoiler for the “Direction of this Blog” article — but as you guys can probably tell, some of the goals that I have set myself in Q2 2019 aka the spring quarter are to be more creative and make more time in my life to pursue things I find fun, hence the podcast and Youtube as well as the blog.
I’m playing around with web design right now, and I’ve decided that I’m going to turn MiribelTran.com from a blog into a website and portfolio, but DON’T WORRY! I’ll still keep the blog component… I will occasionally write blog posts on here, but from now on moving forward, I’m currently planning to try out some podcasts and YouTube. This was always what I had envisioned where it would lead to, but i knew that in 2019, I needed to start off with a blog because less people read blogs and I could get comfortable expressing my thoughts again since it would be a smaller crowd of people. I hadn’t been THAT active or vocal in expressing my thoughts like since middle school (when I ran a Tumblr blog called Miriberry with 3k followers and that was literally the peak of my middle school existence)… and I knew that I was still REALLY afraid of people’s opinions and I needed to be comfortable with myself first sharing my thoughts with other people. However, now I feel like I’m way more comfortable expressing my opinions, I want to try doing things that are more natural to me aka holding conversations, which translates to podcasts and videos. Video editing, podcasting, YouTube, talking in front of a camera are all kind of new to me, but it’s something I’ve always wanted to try out and learn.
Anyways, well… this all feels like I’ve just been talking with a friend. Kind of cathartic. I want to end this with something really cool that made me so happy.
I had a close friend tell me recently after going through a breakup that they read my article on “Letting Go” and it really helped them a lot! I wanted to post the screenshots down below and just blur out the names, but I kind of also just want to respect their privacy in them sharing that with me. So I’ll do the latter.
Overall, I’m just glad that people enjoy reading my posts, and thank you to those of you who read them! This has literally been just a fun creative thing I wanted to do in 2019, but I’ve received good feedback from people—on top of the fact that my recent article with Thrive Global became one of the top 10 trending posts on the entire website the week that it was published! <3 WILD, I know.
Anyways, I’ll be writing some more blog posts this week, but I just wanted to not leave you guys in the dark and share some updates!
Keep growin’ and glowin’ ;)
and happy spring, everyone!